i am very bad at reading my bible. i know this.  i admit this…… and i know i need to work on this.

i am very bad at doing yoga at home, on my own and/ or doing any of my yoga vidoes. I know this. i admit this.

today, i did a yoga video, at home, on my own. YAY

today, i read my bible….a devotional bible….i tirned to todays date and read Micah 6-7

the verse that stuck out the most was this

“AS FOR ME, I LOOK TO THE LORD FOR HIS HELP. I WAIT CONFIDENTLY FOR GOD TO SAVE ME, AND MY GOD WILL CERTAINLY HEAR ME”   Micah 7:5

Sweet. Just what i needed to hear!

God is Good

we are getting a new car. looks liek its gonna be a honda pilot 2003. i test drove a saturn vue……liked it but it was too small. test drove renees pilot and i looooooooooooooooved it.

someone is coming to look at the montero this weekend……..

i went shopping alone to get the outfit for my 10 year reunion for this friday night…..made 2 trips to the fitting room and tried on about 15 dresses. it was not fun, and my boobs are so huge is comical. that fact alone makes me want to stop breast feeding.  not to mention the marks all my bras leave on my back and tops of my shoulders. i will be a hunch back soon from carrying these things around.

ive already made a call to the insurance companay about the breast reduction. now i just need to get to my doctor to get the referral to the surgeon.. i cant wait to have boobies HALF of what they are now!

my work has started and the 4 am wakeup call has been rough the past 2 times b/c bryson was up both nights. heis never up at night! i took a big 2.5 hour nap today and i loved it

enough. bed.

Hatties FAMOUS Fried Chicken

My dinner- Red Beans and Rice

Melissas Salmon...on special that night

"THE KIDS"

" THE ADULTS" lol

I have been dying to go to Hatties for like 2 months since I saw Bobby Flays Throwdown over the fried chicken…

so tonight we went….9 of us… Jason, me, mom , tim, dad, joyce, ryan , melissa and jess. We were all excited. I heard that i had to have the Mojito from a few peeps, so i had one. It was good. Wasnt fabulous….. but good.

Also- Jasper the owner/head chef sat at the table next to us with his family. I wanted to get a picture, but i didnt. lol.

i ordered red beans and rice with one piece of fried chicken for 13.95. I love beans and rice and i think i make a really really yummy beans and rice meal. I put alot of other things in it (onions, green peppers, black beans, red beans, adobo, chilli powder, paprika, cumin, and tomatoe paste and crushed tomatoes)…. so i thought theirs would be something similar and super fabulous.

I was a little disapointed even when i saw the dish. all the beans on one side, all the white rice on the other side and 1 peice of fried chicken sitting in the middle. I couldnt add enough salt to the dish to make it yummy enough for me.

The fried chicken however, wwas really really yummy. BUt i didnt have anything to compare it too. I think their ” secret ingredient” was NUTMEG. yep…..

( my sis just saw what i was writing and said that i make the best beans and rice and that hatties was gross…lol)

Jason just got the fried chicken meal…chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn…all yummy.

melissa got salmon and a bunch of other stuff….yummy

and my brother got  fried catfish…. yummy

my mom got ribs…..flavor was great, but i dont really eat ribs.

so everyones dish was great, but mine.

everyone said they wont return and didnt know what all  the hype was about…… it makes me a little sad. lol, i dont know why.

i guess i just had such a high expectation b/c of bobby flay and the food network……

plus a lot of peeps said how much they loved the place. I guess if i got ANY OTHER DISH THAN THE ONE I GOT….I may agree.

I hate when i make the wrong choice at a restaurant. oh well.

it was great experience to go to the rest after it was on throwdown. i would still like to go to other restaraunts that were on throwdown…and i also plan on visiting some places from diners, drive ins and dives.

…..last thought…..

i would have enjoyed my meal more if it was jack daniels chicken strips and mashed potatoes from TGIFridays….sadly. a chain.

i will post pics later

i am sitting on one computer with headphones in my ears ( firsttime) listening to my yoga music…loooooove it, and jason is on the computer next to me searching the internet for a new suv for me.

we took ours to the shop today and they said that it would cost a minimum of 800 and could be up to 1200. WHAT.  the blue book value for our 2000 mitsubishi montero is only 1700 for a ” good” condition…and we just put almost 500 in it for 4 new tires like 3 weeks ago. and got new brakes a few weeks before that. ….so we ( mostly jason) decided that we werent going to fix it but are going to get a new car instead.

sooooooooooooooooooooo… jason has been searching and searching on line all day. im sad that we have to buy a new car but i am very excited to be getting one!

whats nice is that God had perfect timing for this…i start working again on monday and will be getting paid about a week or so later….and that money will go right towards ( some of it) our new car….as well as trading the suv in. so He is still taking care of us……..

i went and took a bike ride down our road today for the 3rd day in a row…. its 4.4 miles round trrip…. not much, it takes me about 20-25 minutes and its rather hilly. i should do it twice but my hands go sooooooo numb. why is that?

and then i made a yummy Pablano Corn Casserol from Guy Fieri….. and it was great! it was my first time using pablano peppers ( not hot) and panko bread crumbs and i loooooove them both.

then i went to the gym to take a body sculpting class………

then i found out that as soon as i left bryson head butted jason and had his first tears and cried for 90 minutes. poor jason and poor bryson!

now i am playing on facebook, of course, itunes and gmail……. and of course, writting this blog.

tomorrow is jason, my brothers, and samanthas birthdays!

my family is all going out to eat at HATTIES in saratoga to celebrate…yay its the bobbly flay throwdown place. i am so excited.

thats all for now.

oh! last night alivia woke up singing songs at 4:30 am!!!! and she pretty much stayed up…jason had to go up and sleep with her at like 5:30! shes a crazy kid, but boy do i love her. shes melts my heart,

last night mom and tim took me and jason and alivia  and bryson to the schatighoke fair. boy oh boy did we see some fine looking country folk there. lol. and i am being sarcastic of course.

fairs are no fun for adults over 18 unless you are there with your kids…. then it is almost as fun as it was when you were a kiddo yourself. alivia got a wrist band for unlimited rides and she probably went on about 10 of them. The ladybug car ride, the nascar ride the one that goes fast around and around, i have no idea what its called, on a kid roller coaster and the princess bouncy bounce. and she went on all but 2 of them, 2 or 3 times. me and livi did one of the watergun race games…. and there were about 5 others playiung and livi won! she was so excited and we were all clapping for her…she got to pick out any prize she wanted…so she picked a big stuffed pink piggy. so much fun.

in the meantime of all this fun stuff…. i noticed on the bouncy bounce that he shorts were all wet in the back. so i thought either her diaper had leaked or she had sat on a wet seat on the ride before. we didnt have ONE diaper for her, or a change of clothes. of course. so tim went out to the car to look for some…. he came back with a diaper that was 1 size too small…no big deal… and one of my sisters little tshirts. well, that little tee shirt went down to alivia ankles. LOL> we had no choice.

i changed her out of the wet clothes , put on the diaper and the huge tee shirt and put her sweatshirt back on,. she was wearing brown and pink light up sneakers. LOL. she looked like a complete ragga muffin and she also looked like she belonged to one of the toothless wonders that ran the fun house ride. ( oh yeah, she went on the fun house and the big slide)…. it was so hilarious that i wouldnt let her walk. she either had to ride in the double stroller or be carried.

it was hilarious.

today… i went to church with both kids by myself. this was the first time. getting there wasnt bad at all….. but as i went to pick livi up from the nursery i smelled her instantly. she pooped. of course… i had no diapers. i ran into a couple from my old home group and they gave me a pullup…thank you thank you. so i changed her in the car.

our church gave hot dogs out after service and i of course had one and so did livi. in teh car i was asking her if she wanted to go to target and she said ” i dont want to go to target i want to go to park better”  LOL, thats what she said word for word. at that same time i looked down and noticed a big spot of ketchup and mustard on my shirt. great. def no target. i wiped it off best as i could…. and then as we got to the light by our house …she started to cry and said she wanted to go to the park, so i gave in … its a gorgeous day and i knew i wouldnt take her after we got home.

as we get to the parking lot, i feel something wet on my arm. my right boob was leaking milk right through my shirt and the baby wash cloths i put there to prevent that exact thing. lol. that is why i needed to go to target.. breast pads and deodorant, lol.

my top shirt is back and white patterns so you coulod not tell it was wet. fine. no big deal.

i thought that no one would possibly come that i know. 5 minutes after we get there alaiyna ( sorry for butchering the spelling if you are reading this) shows up with her son and hubby. GREAT. lol… so i of course had to tell her about all my funny things that had happened in the last 15 minutes.

its 3:51 pm its gorgeous out. livi should be waking up soon. bryson is sleeping in his swing… and jason is on his way home from work. he wants to go for a bike ride. im not sure if that will actually happen but it would be fun.

thats all i have to report for now. 1 week till i start working. which means that i have to start getting up at 4:15 am 3 days a week and be at work by 5am. oh boooooy! but at least then i will be forced into my old workout habits and i am super excited about both of those things.

ok… now, thats all i have to report!

have a great day

these are the things that are driven me freggin BONKERS

1. lady and shadow ( moms 2 stupid dogs that bark all the time, lay all over the furniture, sit at your feet so you dont see them and step and trip over them all the time, hide under the babies crib so i cant get them out when he is sleeping….get out of the house and run away and dont come back for hours…and drag their dirty butts against alivia carpet)

2. minnie and angel. ( moms 2 stupid cats…..minnie just had 4 kittens and she is always hungry {i should be able to relate to this} and also stands and sits right under your feet so you trip on her. and gets on the table and into anything that you have. HAIRBALLS. and angel really should have been name B*T%$….she attacks all the other animals and has even more HAIRBALLS.)

3. Buying groceries on MOnday that are all gone by Wednesday…..even though everyone says they dont eat any of it.

4. Picking up the house of EVERYONES messes ( we all do it)…. and having my mom say that NONE of it is hers!

5. Being nagged by my mom about 1 or 2 things left out or out of place while the whole house could be trashed with mostly her stuff….and thats ok….b’c she ” never makes messes”

6. when jason says he folded my laundry and lovingly put it away…. but as i went through my drawers i found out that they were all still dirty and had never been washed. Nice thought on jasons account… but the clothes were all dirty!

7. Have I mentioned the dogs and cats?

8. People who complain on facebook about people updating their status too much… um hello!!!!! thats what facebook is for…well maybe not technically, but thats what most of my friends use it for…… and thats what i use it for. Its my version of twitter except i stick to facebook. if you dont like it…. unfreind me and unfreind them. whatever.

9. my sister asking me to use my id every weekend!!!!!!!! She already ” lost” it once….so i went to dmv to get a new one and the same day she found it. she was drunk and misplaced my id and her money. hmmm. and she had it “taken away” once at a bar that i had to go into while 9 months pregnant and get back! How embarrassing. I told her no once…… and have let her use it several other times….. but i make her trade something for it… a home facial, watching the kids, giving livi a bath, and eating some of her leftovers from going out to eat. so thats 4 times.

She wants it tonight and i dont know what i want for it…. but i know i dont want to let her use it anymore.

10.  the fact that i still have 25-30 pounds of my 60 pound baby weight gain to lose. And the fact that my mom keeps buying CRAP food and bringing crap food home from work b/c ” they were gona throw it  out” Me and jess both tell her to stop buying and bringing these tempting foods home… and she says we just need more self control. BULL $%&*! She says it makes her feel better to bring this stuff home b.c she cant eat it bc of her weight loss surgery… but she knows someone else is eating and enjoying it. what the heck! if its here its hard not to eat it. I didnt buy crap at my apt and i dont buy crap for here b/c i love it and i will eat it. i do not want to be tempted.  she doesnt get that.

so0- thats all im gonna say for the bugging me part for now. i need to say something positive….

a girl who is a whole bunch younger than me and from my old church (even though i see her family at my current church sometimes now) and she recently has gotten married and just 2 weeks ago picked up and moved with her hubby to the Dominican republic to start a business! how crazy and amazing right? You would not believe the amazing faith and trust and love of God that this girl has. She has a blog and it lifted me up in many ways today… you should all check it out and keep them in your prayers.

click HERE to go to the blog. read it and be inspired.

on another note…

jason submitted a resume on sunday night to DeCrescentis distributing company and on Tuesday am they called him and set up an interview for thursday… so he went in yesterday for the interview and it went very well. They sent him home to take a personality profiling test on line…and said they would be in touch…. so we are waiting to hear back. they offered him a job right before we got married buy he didnt want that particular job. this one is different. the hours are like 7:30am-3:30-5:30 pm……… depending on how fast he works……and that is sooooo much better for our family. now he leaves at like 9 or 9:30 and doesnt get home till almost 8 and he works weekends. sucks. so we are hoping that if this is Gods will then he will get it and enjoy it….  untill troopers.

but we are also wondering if troopers really is gonna happen or not and if his feet will be able to handle all the running during academy…..guesswe are just waiting like God wants us to do. maybe God wants jasons feet to heal first. maybe God wants to teach us pateience in many ways first.  i dont know…

i love jason

i love alivia

i love bryson

i love my parents…even though my mom is on my ” things that bug me list” right now…lol… but thats just for one or two things… on the whole she is amazing.

i love my awesome God….

but we need your prayers…….

thanks!

okay peeps…..

this morning me and livi got up and had breakfast and got ready to go to the gym so i could take a yoga class ( even though they suck there) and she could go play in the childrens room. i get to the y and i remember that the gyms were closed for the week b/c they were putting new floors down. DARN IT.

i couldnt go and do my own workout b.c i was only wearing flip flops for the yoga. and we were already out of the house….. bryson was home sleeping with jason so i didnt want to just turn around. so i called sam and we went over there for an hour….. that was fun. but i was so mad about the yoga. oh well…better luck next time and at least i tried!

PACI….

today was the day that i decided to actually take away the paci. she has about 10 or so ( b.c my mom is nuts and keeps buying them for her…) so i am searching all over for them and making a bag full of them so she cant randomly find them…..

its is 2:03 pm. she has been in her room since 12:45ish….. i have gone in there twice. once to tell her to get back in bed… and once to change her diaper, unplug her tv and give her juice. she has screamed bloody murder on and off since she has been in there.

shes kinda quiet right now… but i am not sure if she is reading a book or sleeping. i am anxious to see. i need to be strong and not give in. people keep telling me that i am the mom, i am the one who makes the rules… not my crazy, lovable, demanding and bully of a daughter. lol. … she is a big contradiction that child. contradiction? is that the right word?

it sounded right at first, in my head… but now it sounds funny. huh.

ok…well…. i need to take a lil rest…..

in 2 weeks from today i will be ” working” again…. and i need to be fitter by then. I went and did a great workout at the gym today….. 25 minutes on the arc trainer, followed by 1 lap of walking lunges on the track ( about 120 lunges), then a bunch of biceps and shoulder presses, followed by a whole bunch of leg work on the cable crossovers. i love the cable crossovers.

then i went to walmart and got some groceries…..

came home and had lunch. i am def feeling the eefects of my saturday workout and my workout today and i am tired… but it still feels good.

last night was my first night of switching from breast feeding to bottle feeding between 4am-8am. Since i will be working and then working out at that time…jason will need to feed bryson and i cant be doing jumping jacks with engorged boobies. OUCH. so i need my milk supply to be gone at that time of day… by then.

that is the only feeding i am switching to bottle for now. i am not stopping breast feeding yet. i plan to go as long as i can….. but no further than 6 months. i lasted 4 months last time due to working fulltime and not being able to pump there.

so, needless to say, i am feeling pretty sore today. when i woke up i was o my stomach and there were 2 huge puddles on my bed. i just rolled over and later on when i woke up, there were 2 huge wets spots on my sheet that was covering me. lol. hilarious.

the joys of motherhood.

have a great day!