hello there- it is super hot today, i am huge and over 200 pounds now. i am 34 weeks along and ready to die.

i am having one of those super emotional, 100 % miserable, cry for absolutly no reason kind of days today. its aweful.

we are moving out on sunday and after my mother in law being here for 5 days and helping us clean and pack…… somehow alivia and i have managed to let the house get trashed in the past 24 hours. and we hardly have anything here.

its too hot to spend the whole day outside like we did yesterday and like alivia has done the past few days….. but its too hot to stay inside. i need to have one of those little fans that you can hold at your face and spray a mist of water on at the same time just to keep me semi cool.

i cant wait to just move into my moms house on sunday and be done with it.

i cant wait for jason to go to cali on june 5th and take the trooper test. i cant wait for him to possibly go back on june 19th and take the 2nd test and fin dout when training starts.

i cant wait to have baby bryson.

i cant wait to go back to my 150 weight and be completly happy with that…. i dont think i will EVER think 150 is chunky for me ever again after being preggers twice.

i cant wait for God to show us what we will be doing and where we will be living in the next 6-12 months…..

i cant wait for my little baby shower……

i CAN wait for the pain of labor, but i want it to just hurry up and start.

while my mother in law was here- she read us a quote from the bible… i think it was from phil……talking about how we are supposed to be thankful for ALL things, not just the things we want or need, or even think we need, but to be thankful for all things….. i need to stay focused on that.