ok, so, i know i have not been the best blogger lately. one of my friends pointed out that people are not blogging as much anymore and using facebook and twitter instead. i use facebook, i update my facebook between 5-10 times a day maybe. i update my blog like what, twice a month? i like to read blogs. none of my friends have been frerquent bloggers lately either. well jon is good. linda is pretty good and the rest are pretty much, just as bad at updating as i am.

i think that we all think that people really dont care about what we have to say in our blogs, but thats really not true. people are addicted to the internet and computers and when facebook doesnt have new status updates, and there are no new emails in your inbox, then what? you want to ready blogs. but none are updated!

boooo!

I say we, but really i mean I.

i did write a blog about a week ago but it was sad and depressing. basically me crying and talking about how fat and gross i am still from the baby weight. i saved the blog but i wont be posting that. losing baby weigght is HARD. some of my friends stay tiney during pregnancy and then lose all the weight INSTANTLY. suckers! lol. i am not like that. i need to stop being so hard on myself and remember that its 9 months on and 9 months off for me.

jason gets his vasectomy friday. wooo whoooo.

i have bronchitis for the first time in my life. crazy. both of the kids are NOT sick, neither is jason. i dont know how bc i have been hacking all over the place.

samantha whitman took some pics of baby bryson today. 4 month pics. he is not a very cooperative picture taker. alivia was much better in front of the camera when she was little. but i still think we got some great shots, i cant wait to see them!

alivia is pretty much potty trained. only wears a diaper to sleep. i always tell her to tell me when she is done pooping so i can wipe her. she never does. she always gets down and gets poop all over her leg and all over the toilet seat. messy messy and dirty dirty. i would stay in the bathroom with her but she always kicks me out. little stinker.

always reading a book saying ” leave me a lone mom” hahahahahahahah. i love it.

bryson is doing fabulous, he is almost turning over. he is laughing so much. he is teething. poor baby. i am working now on getting him on a set time/feeeding schedule.

i would like  him to be up at 7 and down at 9am-1130 am, then up for 2-3 hours and down for another 2-3 hours between 130 and 230. then to bed around 630-7. he is eating cereal….he doesnt like it much. and yesterday we started him on bananas. he loves it.

i love my kids. sooooo much. even though bryson isnt sleeping through the night, and alivia challenges me on so many levels, i just adore them. when i am not with them, i want to be with them and i miss them and my heart aches to kiss them again. but of course when i am with them, i look forward to a break. lol.

time is ticking down till our virginia move. i am officially a bootcamp challenge licensee owner! very exciting. lots to do though!

ok, so thats about all for now…… i need to go take 2 sips of my cough medicine with codein and go to bed early. i love that medicine. lol. i never get medicine and i hardly ever take pills for anything. so this is great!

bronchitis isnt so bad!

tonight jason and i, along with my mom and tim and ryan and melissa are all going to my sisters boyfriends halloween party.

i of course waited till the very last minute. i hate my costume. i am a nurse. in a boring white pants and white shirt scrubs. i hate it. i have a giant fake needle and a stethiscope around my neck. i am wearing sneakers. i am feeling to fat and nasty to wear anything better.

i should have been a bootcamp instructor…….but thats no good either. jason is kinda joe dirt and its hilarious.

my sis is a pirate with very very very little clothes on. timmy is a hunter and looks great. melissa is marilyn monroe and i am sure looks fab as well. next year, i am planning way ahead and i am going to have the best costume ever.

i did this same thing my senior year of highschool…..waited till the last minute and then i did not dress up.

i cant wait to just get there and stop feeling like a jerk walking around the house like this.

tomorrow is a kiddos party. i think bryson may need to stay home b.c of stuffy/runny nose….. but alivia will go and has 3 costumes to choose from …. i will still take them both trick or treating.

lots of new pics will be up on facebook and a few on here…..tomorrow.

tonight i met up with my old old old friend ashley robens. i haven’t seen ashley since she moved to arizona about or over 8 years ago……

it was so great to see her. we laughed so much, took a ton of pictures and within a short time we were right back to where we left off, being completely crazy. We are going to a BBQ at her moms house tomorrow and i am very excited for that as well….

I of course, took pictures, i will update those tomorrow.

In other news- Jason cleaned out, organized and rearranged Alivias bedroom today.  It looks great and she actually fell right asleep! She has had trouble going to sleep for weeks. She also told me today that the monster in her room is always there and hes ” behind me all the time” and then she told me that he bites her fingers and her  toes.

SO i told her that if that monster she comes back she needs to say ” Monster, you leave me alone , or Im gonna kick your ASS” Yes, i told my 2.5 year old daughter to say ass. Get over it.

She says butt. Unless I ask her nicely to say ASS. lol. she knows its a bad word……but it makes her feel better about the monster, so whatever.

Time to go read my cookbooks. YUM…..and go to bed.

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2 days ago, jason was going to send a fax for me at work. he forgot to take it. i needed to get out of the house…so i went to office max to send it. ….. the guy comes back from sending my faxes and then tells me the total will be $18.75. WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAT? I couldnt NOT pay it b.c it was cleared and went through. That guy should have totally told me ahead of time ” listen lady, this fax is 10 pages, its gonna be pricey” STUPID.

my dad wrote out the check to pay for my bcc lisense today. i am sending it out tomorrow. i am so excited. I told my dad that i hope to pay him back in full, within 6 months of being in virginia.

jason made a video of alivia on the toilet. its hilarious. you should check it out on my facebook page.

bryson is almost 4 months old. he is doing a bunch more tummy time, and sits up so well in his boppy and out of it on my lap. he smiles all the time and is a FABULOUS sleeper. he just recently increased his wake time from 60 minutes to almost 2 hours. he doesnt cry at all. only when he is ready to go back into his crib. i always lay him down awake.

i let him cry it out last week for the first time. it took him about 5 minutes. i am very very glad, that i started this much earlier with him than i did with livi. up untill this point we always rocked her to sleep. bryson hasnt been rocked to sleep much at all.

i am trying to make some extra money before we move , since we found out it will cost 1200 to ship our POD. So i am booking personal training clients. Jason is off tuesdays and saturdays…. so i am lookin to fill at least tuesdays with clients. i am also looking to have clients on fridays as well, even if i have to pay a sitter.

i have booked several people and i am super excited about the extra money.

alivia has decided that she doesnt really want to take a nap anymore. i dont like this decision. along with that, she has decided she doesnt want to go to sleep at night either.

at 10:30 tonight i heard her banging around, so i went in and she was sitting on top of her dresser, with her lamp on, and she had smeared lotion ALL OVER her mirror. completly covering the mirror.

fun stuff

i have discovered that i love to bake. wierd. i have also discovered that i love to bake with WHOLE WHEAT FLOUR.

this week….. i made banana bread twice, and choc chip cookies with yellow raisens and chopped walnuts tiwce. both with whole wheat.

YUM

my mom is hanving a ridiculously huge, embarrassing garage sale. for 4 days. we have a bunch of our stuff out, but i hate garage sales and when i look at them, i only see junk. some other people however…find great stuff at garage sales

i need to go to bed

ive been doing the INSANITY workout for 2 weeks now. its freggin nuts. i took my day 1 pics…. front and side angles and it was completly disgusting. i can not wait to see how my 30 day and 60 pics are going to be.

ok…thats about all.

lately we have been putting alivia to be at the normal time…between 8 and 830…..and about 1/2 of the time she will still be awake 2-3 hours later. not crying, just awake, talking, singing or reading books in the dark. dont know why this is happening, especially since she hasnt been napping for at least a week or so.

Last night, i was in bed, asleep. Mom comes in at 1:30 and tells me that ALivia is awake, wide awake, and that she doesnt think she had been to sleep yet. I go up there, and she is just bouncing around wide awake. Saying she wants to watch tv. normally i am a strict NO for tv at bedtime, but at this point i was like fine, we will put in a movie. the tv would not turn on. strange.

so she is freakingout crying. i lay down with her, get her to calm down by giving her a massage. then all of a sudden we hear a noise and instantly says ” YOU HEAR THAT?” and the tv turns on by itself….to all static. Im freaked out. I get up and try to turn it off….wont turn off.

I call for my mom. LOL. she comes up and unplugs it. she says, ” i would have really been freaked out if it didnt turn off when i unplugged it” we both kinda lay down with livi.

As I am telling mom how i am kinda freaked out….she says that the first time she came up to check on livi……..she told her that she wasnt sleeping b/c there was a monster in her closet. mom said – no theres no monster. and livi said

” yes there is a tiny one and hes behind me”

WOOOOOOOOOOAAAA.

Behind her bed is a door to the attic. That bedroom used to be my bedroom while in college, and my brothers bedroom while he was in highschool.

We both have had strange things happen and we both think that room is haunted. At this point, its after 2 am. I am freaked out.

Mom stays with livi and i get back in bed, but of course am wide awake. i wake jason. i tell him. he prays. when hes done praying, i continue to pray. stupid satan.( how do you spell that?)

then bryson wakes up……. i am scared to go into his room b/c he doesnt have blinds on his window. lol. what a chicken.

i could not stop thinking about all teh scary things i have seen, heard, and watched in my whole life. it was aweful. the devil was definitly trying to get into my head last night. its so scary.

i posted a status update on facebook saying what was happening….and one of my freinds gave me a link to a website called SCAREMENOT , its really cute. its ” monsters” that are soft and coddule, and cute. they are made to take the “scare” out of monsters. Super cute. i am going to buy the blue one.  It is a locally owned small business.

my brother used to have night terrors when he was growing up and they were sooooo scary. i wonder if alivia is maybe having some bad dreams. its sooooooo scary, i dont want my baby to be scared. i dont want her to say that there is a monster behind her …right at the attic door.

creepy.

here is a lil story that i heard from a 3rd party about a freind of ours…..

she was putting her boys to bed and the one boy said he didnt want to go to bed, she was asking him why and he said that he cant go to be becasue there is a man in his room. she went to teh room and said – look, there is no man in here- the boy said – yes there is hes in the window.

I have chills just writing that.

Kids say crazy things. but are they really seeing these things? or do they just have wild imaginations? i dont like it either way.

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on a completly different note…..

i am on day 4 of  INSANITY and its good stuff. i love it and it is kicking my butt big time. it is not for beginners. they say it constantly. it is almost impossible to do and they say that constantly as well.

i was supposed to take day one pictures on day one…but i didnt. i am going to have mom take pictures of me today………. and then in 30 days and then 60 days….we take more. I will post them at that time……

***** UPDATE**** alivia just came down to talk to  her daddy and she came right out and said  ” there is a monster behind me” i said WHAT…she said ” yep, a big one, behind me”……… i asked her what the monster looked like…and she said a person. i said a boy or  agirl…and she said  A BOY.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so…..the cat is out of the bag……. the first or second week of January…WE WILL BE MOVING TO VIRGINIA BEACH, VIRGINIA!!!!!!

I had to keep things quiet for a couple reasons, for a couple of weeks. We are very very very excited and I actually feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest once we came to a final decison.

As most of you know, Jason has been looking for a new job ( he has a job) for the past year, and also going back and forth from cali a few times……… so we have decided to stop waiting and stop searching and just GO. We will be buying the license to Bootcamp Challenge and I will be teaching it down there.

Jasons brother and his family just moved there a month ago to open another branch of their business and they love it and we are excited to be near family.

I have a few contacts down there through clients up here, so that will be good to help me get my first class going…..

The plan is for me to start out teaching one class, and by the end of the year to hopefully have 3 classes going. Jason is going to teach a class as well. If we can get 4 classes running, 6 times a year. Jason wont need to have a ” job” and we can just run BCC together.

I am so excited! I love my job sooooooo much and I am so excited for the opportunity to make it my own business and start new down there!

We are so excited to live by the ocean and in warmer weather!

I am very sad to be leaving all of my friends, family and clients…….. but it has to happen.

A few other things…..

I started a new program yesterday called INSANITY ( google it) Its 10 videos that you do 6 times a week, and have a fitness test every 2 weeks for 60 days. I almost died during the fitness test! Its easier right now for me to do something at home than to go take BCC, b/c of childcare. So I am very excited to start seeing results.

I went to see the surgeon and ge 100% thinks i should get the breast reduction. he took a whole bunch of measurements and a whole bunch of pictures ( eww) and now we just need to get the ok from the insurance company.

He also said I need to stop nursing. There needs to be a minimum of 2 months of non nursing before the surgury and a minimum of 4 weeks of recovery before we move. SO that puts me right where i wanted it…. monday dec 11th …. ( the date could be off a day or so)

i am very excited about that, but kinda sad that i am done nursing. I did nurse this am for the first feeding and i think i will do that just for a week or so to releive some of the pressure. but thats it….. went from 5 feedings a day…right down to 1.

when i stopped nursing alivia…..the reaming 20 plus pounds came off soooooo easily, so i am hoping the same happens now!

thats all!

Have a great day!

big things are happening here people! I cant go into details right now b/c things are not 100%… just about 95%!!! SO i am waiting for one phone call or email to come in and then i will be buying a plane ticket and things will become public.

I am very excited. Today was the final decision. I could do cartwheels and those of you that know me know how hard it is for me to keep anything a secret! soon soon soon my friends.

NO I AM NOT PREGGERS! LOLOLOL.

A few things i can say

1. i created a kickass workout for tomorrow!

2. I created a new playlist that i love and 2 songs that i am already playing on repeat as i play on the computer ( mile cyrus …party in the usa and jay-z ….empire state of mind…….the part where alicia keys sings ” neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew yoooooooooooooork” is amazing…..) LOL

3. jason and i leave bright and early on friday morning to head out to wells maine for 2 nights and 3 days, with no kiddos, for our 5 year anniversary.

4. my dad gave us a nice chunk of change to use as spending money LOBSTER AND CRABCAKES YUMMMMY

5. I have a meeting my a surgeon next monday and will hopefully be setting a date in early dec to have my breast reduction! yeah yeah

6. i am just so excited!

7. we had a nancy noble photoshoot yesterday, i just saw a few teasers……and i am so excited to see more! i love her and her style.

God is Good. He is just kinda slow for us sometimes!

I saw this super easy and super yummy recipe on the Food Networks “Gina and Pat Neely” the episode was called ” Something outta nothing”. I saw it on like Thursday and I made it today….without a recipe,  just going by my memory of the show.

Heres what you need

a head or 2 of broccoli

1 large onion

1 large carrot

4 cups or so of fat free chicekn broth

1 or 2 garlic cloves ( chopped, minced, whatever)

cream ( i used 1/2 and 1/2)

chop broccoli, onion, carrot and garlic and place in a pot with a lil olive oil……. cook till tender ( including broccoli stem)

then add a tablespoon or so of flour to thicken it up

then add 4 cups broth

heat till bubbly and cook for 10-15 minutes

then add in 1/2 a cup or so of cream

….then you either need to transfer to a blender and blend it, or use an emulsifier and blend it in the pot.

also…use some leftover good hearty bread…i just bought a famers whole wheat loaf from price choppers deli and used 1/2 of that.  slice into THICK slices, then use hands to rip into large crouton size chunks.

place on a cookie sheet, drizzle with extra virgin olive oil ( not alot) and sprinkle iwth salt and pepper and some RED PEPPER FLAKES.

heat in oven for about 10-15 minutes at 350.

add to top of soup with a small sprinkle of cheddare cheese!

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO freggin good!

the only thing that is semi bad is the lil bit of cream, and seriously, a 1/2 cup split up between the 5 or 6 people that the soup serves is like a tablespoon or two…which is NOT BAD.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good!

make it!

or pay me to make it for you!

i also added salt and pepper and red pepper flakes to the soup for a lil kick!

YUMMY

so i didnt drink the 3rd beer

living with my mom is not REALLY driving me to drink

but its def putting a strain on mine and jasons relationship. that sucks.

i am grateful that we get to live here temporairly

we are working on a plane to move AWAY FROM NEW YORK in the spring.

we plan to have 6 months of living expenses saved….. and then just move.

i will of course be buying the bootcamp liscense so i can do the same work where ever we go.

so where…..

virginia beach? florida? NOT CALI for me unless jason gets into troopers…….

all we know…. there has to be a beach there!

goodnews- ive lost 3 pounds since monday…food journaling and hard workouts each day! sweeeeeeet!

i have just had 2 beers. i havent had 2 beers in forever. i am stressed. i want to be back in our own place. i cant stand it.

thats about all i have to say right now.

i think i am gonna go drink one more and go to bed……. the 3 beers and the fried fish leftovers my stepdad brougt home pretty much ruined my good food journaling for the day.

thanks a lot.